So I am a little more nervous about my meeting with the Radiation Oncologist yesterday.

It turns out I have an active spot near my liver. They thought it was nothing before, but it is considerably smaller than it was in September. So because it reacted to the chemotherapy it means it is cancerous. So I will be getting treatment in that spot as well.

I have to get another PET Scan as well. The one I had last Thursday also showed five of my vertebrae in my back light up. Now the Radiation ONC is thinking it is more than likely a false positive. He thinks it is just all my bone marrow regenerating everywhere and that part “lit up”. I am trying not to dwell on it, but I am just thinking if I have Cancer in my spine then that cannot be good.

He also said he thnks I have had Non-Hodgkin’s and Hodgkin’s Disease since the beginning (May 2003). Which is one of the theories my regular ONC had suggested. My first round of chemo got rid of all the Non-Hodgkin’s because that is what it is geared towards. That is why the Hodgkin’s was evident in October 2004. We had not done anything to fight it.

Dr. Constine assures me that I will make it to Texas this year and the next 50 years. So I do like his confidence. I know I will make it … just sometimes it is hard not to get the “What If’s”.

Carrie doesn’t deserve this. She does not deserve to be alone.

So other than all the crap going on up above I feel great. My appetite is coming back and I nap later and later in the day. I have even started back to work. Well, I work from home in my basement office, but it is work none the less. It feels good to be productive again.